Fie for Thought
Pain Vanquished
The blackness of chronic pain is a consistent constraint,
Upon what is laughingly referred to as normal life.
Normality descends into abnormality, your cries too faint
To be heard, as Pain wields his long-bladed knife.
You become battle weary, as your struggle to combat
The Mighty Pain goes on, your arsenal is replete
With medication and creams, he plays tit for tat,
With side effects you would never wish to meet.
Just when you have all but given up the fight,
And taken to your bed, wearily accepting defeat.
She appears, a Florence Nightingale, a bringer of light,
Promising to soon have you back on your feet!
She cajoles and nurses you week by week,
More drugs to overcome the side effects
And solutions to your problems she will always seek,
Standing beside you, being the shield that deflects,
All of Pain’s intentions to render you quite senseless.
You begin to see a faint light at the end of the tunnel.
A way out of the penetrating pain and tiring distress,
Finally a way to scale Pain’s towering gunwale.
Escape to a welcome freedom, to be part of daily life,
To return to work, to be a participant in the team.
Pain which, has been the bane of one’s life,
Consigned to the background, not prominent, not seen.
Oh yes, he still tries to creep under the net of morphine,
To drag down to the depths, enlivened limb and bone,
But he is vanquished at every turn, no longer supreme.
He is defeated, banished forever, he leaves me alone.
So I am out of the darkness and into the shining light,
Life no longer such an uphill struggle, joy partaken.
As my nurse promised, worthy of all the fight,
Control of my life, wrestled free and retaken!
Looking back at the pictures that I took in Taiwan, I remembered how much I missed that place. Its so beautiful in a way and the freedom is something I've never felt before. And I missed the people that I spent my time there with; my campmates.
When we're in the army, we can't wait to ORD. Now that we already did, we're missing that togetherness dearly. When I met up with some of the guys, we suddenly have nothing to say. We only felt something inside. The feeling of meeting up with someone you've spent 1 and a half years together in the same room and place doing the same things, going through the same shit. I can't describe it. Its just a great feeling.
When I look at every one of the pictures, it just makes me remember how it happened, where, when. Exactly how it is, as if it happened just last week. The laughters and sweat that we shared together. I missed them a lot.
From the navigation exercise in Taiwan, to the slacking in bunk and street soccer matches at Maju Camp, I remember everything; how it felt like. There's nothing more evident of the brotherhood of our platoon than during our platoon training and exercises and the Taiwan trip. Although we had our differences and dislike, whenever someone is down, there'll always be someone else that will lend a hand. And everyone in the platoon has the same mindset.
Walking 46km, around Taiwan for navigation isn't funny but with the right people, laughing together and trust with the navigators, the exercise isn't daunting at all, ITS FREAKING FUN. We're tired but we kept our spirits up by joking around and laughing. I missed that feeling. The trust, the laughters and the care for each other. Its almost the same now at the workplace but somehow its different. Although Army sucks and still does take away our youth, living together with strangers taught us and created something that we can never learn or get anywhere else.
It'll sound kinky but it does makes sense. We all learned and developed the spirit of brotherhood. Something not many people can do, but we did, all 21 of us.
And suddenly, I'm a proud owner of a Macbook Pro and an Xbox 360. Life's just getting better. =)
Some old flames from the past. Love this song. One of the few songs that really brings out the emotions in you.
She's Gone - Steel HeartShe's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.
In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.
(Chorus)
Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.
She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.
Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.
(Chorus x2)
Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Sitting at home on a cloudy Sunday. Pouring out my thoughts, to a world where kindness is hard to find.
Just a Little KindnessWhen poverty comes knocking
Hunger surely comes, glaring
In conspiracy, wears tearing
And sickness sneaks in, eating
Just a little kindness-
A life would be saved.
When justice comes, perverting
False witness comes rising
With the simple truth, denying
And natural justice twisting
Just a little testimony-
An innocent man would be saved.
When ignorance comes knocking
The fool in his paradise fooling
About his God blasphaming
All the earthly things possessing
Just a little counselling-
A wise man would be made.
When despair comes jeering
Fear surely comes, dominating
And diligence comes, fading
With suicide, so strong, tempting.
Just a little encouragement-
Hell would be ashamed.
When lust comes, controlling
True love comes, faking
And reasoning comes, evading
With eternity life neglecting.
Just a little resistance-
Heaven would gain a soul.
