That will never be...


I sit inside the darkness,
scared of what I'll see.
I want to jump and live my life
beneath the raging sea.

I reach for some companion,
some lover in the night
but only bring back sadness
and memories of the fright.

In this life I'm useless,
no one cares for me.
I search and search for happiness,
but there is none to set me free.

I wrap my arms around myself
finding that's not what I need
and pray for some glimpse of spring
so I can plant a seed.

I sit inside the darkness,
no one to call my name.
I light a little candle
but there's only a feeble flame.

I try to spark a fire,
some resemblance of my past,
but the wind just blows it out
and the fire never lasts.

I wait here in the darkness,
wanting you to be
here within my solitude
to pull me from the sea.

I once sat in the darkness,
surrounded by the sea,
waiting, wanting love again...
but that will never be.  ¶ 7:30 PM