Woke up today thinking about a qoute from Tuesday's with Morrie. It goes something like "One who faces death, will accept death". It makes me think of what must have been through in Fizah's mind in the last year she had. How she accept her fate and somehow did not show a glimmer of sadness in her face. Not at least when she's with me. Its amazing how strong a human being can be when they're facing death and accepting it. I forced myself to face death before, but I had a choice. She doesn't.
The way she carried herself around after knowing she had 1 year to live was totally amazing, for a 14 year old girl, perhaps for a normal person. Her smile was warmer, her eyes were sparkling like the stars, her hugs felt assured and safe. I can't describe it. I was devastated, destroyed and she was behaving like the whole world was heaven. I didn't understand it back then. Stupid. 2 years back I did. I asked her how she did it. She said 'I'm not gonna die feeling negative. Its not beautiful. Anyway, I'm not dying alone. I've felt love. That's enough.'
Its beautiful. Life's beautiful if you understand it, even just a small part of it. We can be feeling down sometimes, but its just us. Everyone hates to be feeling down. Everyone wants to be happy. Just a smile from someone else could make your day a little brighter. Its whether you wanna pull yourself up or remain sad. Friends are the best people you can have around to cheer yourself up. The right friends. There are times when you need time alone. Just to calm your mind. Take a break and go relax. Come back when you're smiling again. Then enjoy life's beauty, in any view you see it, even death. =)
