Sometimes I wonder why I can't be 'not nice' and just ignore stuffs. When I tried to, it just keeps appearing at the back of my head saying 'Don't be bad lah'. Then I'll feel guilty. Give for example, a tired counter person, had a bad day, serves me late and with a gloomy face. In normal case people would complain or just gave that 'wtf' look on their faces. Somehow I can't do this. Honestly, I'll still speak politely, smile and say 'Thank you'.
Yes, I do complain, like any other Singaporean, but I'll keep my complains and just try to understand the reason for these actions. I hate to piss someone off and making some gloomy counter person's day brighter politely and with a smile would go better with me then pick up an arguement or complain. If somehow I pissed someone, I'll sometimes ignore, but again, at the back of my mind, there's this voice saying 'Don't be bad lah'. Like what the hell.
Anyhow, I chatted up this girl on the lrt on the way back. Her name's Azizah. Just being friendly, being nice. Just talk to her about the jeans that she wore. Kinda nice. It has this rather faint fade at the front with the word 'A' on one of the pockets. Oh, its a grey jeans. So we talked about that then talk about what we're doing now and where we're from. She's from school at Laselle, then went out with her friends, who were in the lrt too. Didn't notice them till I was alighting. Waved goodbyes and I made my move. Kinda interesting. I guess I'll try that some other time again.
Casanova
I am not you're Casanova
Me and Romeo have never been friends
Can't you see how much I really love ya
Going to say it to you time and time again
Oh Casanova
Casanova
Every man deserves a good woman
And I want you to be my wife
Time is so much better spent baby
With a woman just like you in my life
So let me love you
Fill me up inside
I wanna hold you baby
So let me squeeze ya
Don't you know that i'll be on my knees for you baby
Oh baby
I am not you're Casanova
Me and Romeo have never been friends
Can't you see how much I really love ya
Going to say it to you time and time again
Oh Casanova
Casanova
Everytime i wanna see ya
I can't find the words to tell you so
But i love, i love, i love, i love, i love ya babe
And I just got to let you know
How much i need ya
Show you what you mean to me each day babe
Baby, baby, baby
Oh and when I told you
Girl I'm an average guy (an average guy)
You seem to know just how I really feel
Cuz I can't let you go
I need you, I want ya
Just stay right here with me
Oh baby I never knew love, till you came along
Oh Casanova
I am not you're Casanova
Me and Romeo have never been friends (oh baby)
Can't you see how much I really love ya
Going to say it to you time and time again
I am not you're Casanova
Me and Romeo have never been friends
Can't you see how much I really love ya
Going to say it to you time and time again
Oh Casanova
Casanova
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Hmm. Something vampiric for the lot.
My Undying Thirst
I can never look in the mirror again.
At the face that did those horrible things.
Everyone will see my guilt because I've committed a sin.
All these bad feelings I just want to fling.
I don't think I can live with myself now,
Because of what the voice in my mind instructed me to do.
What possessed me, I have no clue,
Guilty feelings I have, I really do.
I still hear their cries and see the ungodly color of red,
The voice made me do this to quench his thirst.
The thirst to see someone stiff, cold, and dead,
Feeling so awful and bad I could burst.
The bodies they will never find,
Search high and low, I made sure of that.
Pleasure I got from this I must be out of my mind,
Getting pleasure from pain and evil's deep dark vat.
The yearning I have no control,
To see the red flow and hear their cries.
I have damned my very soul,
Stop me if you can, I dare you to try.
