After 3 long weeks, hundreds of kilometers of running, liters of sweat, I've finally passed that damned SOC with a 9 minute timing! Never ever gonna touch that thing for as long as I live. It even leave a scar on my back. A red line caused by the rifle hitting my back while running.
Nice for memories.
Just realized that I spent at least 4 hours on the guitar daily whenever I'm spending time at home(BUT I STILL SUCK, DAMN IT!). Can't deny it, I loved her. Dez'ray, pronounced as Desiree, seems like a weird name. So let me explain what's the reason behind it ya. =D
I know this girl. Her nick was Dez'ray. I asked her who's that. She said its an actress. So what's so good about this actress that you've taken up her name, fancied it and put it as your nickname. She said that she find the actress so beautiful and desiring, that she just fuels her desires to be with her.
Well, something like that. Can't really recall. So I thought, although my guitar's totally used, vintage and like as if its been sunbathed, its her feel, her sound and, well, just something about her that make me feel I wanna just play or just hold her. Even to sleep. So I thought to myself, why not name her Dez'ray too? Heh. =D
Oh, and O level result takers! All the best! Hope there'll be good news from the few friends out there!
Its not like I don't want to move on. I try to pick myself up, and then I kept falling down again. And its always when I've contact you. When I thought I was walking back as normal, I just fell. Kept trying to remain steady but I just kept falling. Advices came from all sorts of directions. "Forget about her!", "Why not remain friends?", "Go back!", "What are you thinking so much for?". Confused me.
Many times I tried to, and failed, till I just said "Forget it". Since I'm
weak and can't stand by myself just talking to you, then I rather not contact you.
As you said true friends stick to each other, no matter what the change. I agree with that. And I'm not a friend worth keeping.
As for now, I wanna put it away. A big part of me is telling me to find a way as I typed this. Maybe in the future our paths may crossed since we're in the same industry and a new friendship will start, if we meet again.
