Spent the whole week in camp. Was suppose to go out field but I reported sick for my skin infection. So end up stayed in camp while the rest go for training.
Hmm. Let's see what I did. Cleaned the toilet and the bunk. Toilet, 2.5 hours. Bunk, 5 hours. 7 hours of cleaning, alone. I don't know why I did it. I just wanted to do something for the guys, after they come back from training, would be nice to have a nice clean bunk to rest in and clean toilets to bathe in. Purely because of that.
2.5 hours in the toilet cleaning ain't funny. Especially, when there are gremlins living in there. Yes, it was that dirty. Fire hose, plastic broom and brushes. And lots of detergent. By the time I'm done, the toilet's taps are so shiny that they looked brand new. Lol, and the showers, you could bathe barefooted in it. For the guys.
5 hours of spring cleaning the bunk is like running 10km. No kidding, the sweat, the hunger, the thirst, my legs ache after cleaning. Took the pains to clean the fan with soap and water and wiped every dusty surface there is, except the windows. All the while listening to Class 95, and singing. The new guys that had just posted in were with their "wtf" face whenever they walked pass the bunk. Well, I'm pretty sure girls would love to see guys bare bodied, all sweaty doing spring cleaning right? You girls get the kick out of it right?! Heh! Ok, shut it up. After all the wiping, sweeping and tidying, I went to every bed and fold their clothes nicely and arranged them on the bed. For the guys.
After all that work, I'll go for a run, and hit the gym. Evening came, all fresh after a bathe and nice dinner, I'll just lie on the bed with my guitar and chill. Cool eh?
Being positive and not lazy. That's my secret. Laziness is a habit that can be broken only by yourself. I can tell myself to do long hours of work and still be positive about it. Even if its something I don't like to do. Its all in the mind, whether you want to do it or not. Don't blame anything else but yourself first, after that seek out what you can do about it. When I do things for the benefit of others I won't ask for anything in return. If I do something extra just for the better of something and no one appreciates it, I don't care. I chose to do it, just because I want to do it, not to impress people or to show people how good or kind I am. That 7.5 hours of shit I don't think many people would love to do it, but on the positive side, I'm doing it for my friends. I don't expect them to say thanks or a pat on the back. Don't keep wanting stuffs in return. When it becomes a habit, you'll feel sucky after you do something and didn't get anything.
And DON'T DENY your MISTAKES or FACTS. We are human and we make mistakes. We tend to be lazy and our egos makes it harder for us to accept certain facts and mistakes. Everyone does it, its how each of us handle it. I kick my laziness step by step. The first step is the hardest, to start doing something. Once you get the momentum, the other steps will follow, through determination and motivation.
Those two words can come from friends and family, but the best determination and motivation is yourself. If you can't motivate yourself to move, no one can help you, no matter how much they try. In the end, you'll just piss people off with you're low self-esteem and laziness. Again, don't deny it. Its time for us to just shed our egos and just improve ourselves. Improve your life. You're not gonna do it, then it'll be FUCKED UP till you finally realise it. Its not army, its not the surroundings, its not the food, its just you. Learn to take it in you and face it like a man. Not blame it on other stuffs.
Live your life to the fullest, we've got no time to feel down about anything.
