Fie for Thought
Dream Come True Shattered
I'm smothered by a memory tonight,
entangled in your finger's phantom touch,
the filgreed chills of your delicious bite,
trapped in the comfort of your drunken clutch--
for what your ardent kiss meant yesterday
seems so clear it stings like shards of glass
that slash my eyes to hear your echoes say
"what is now, what was then, this must pass."
If lost, these words are simpler than they seem;
simply listen to the echo when they pass:
they say I want to haunt your every dream--
it says "dream on, you're an ass."
Waiting
The small child sits
Around a darkened pond.
Wishing, waiting, breathing upon his woven mits,
Trying to forget his broken bond.
Small droplets of black
Pour down from darkened eyes,
And mark their track.
The child stands, and looks upon
A single flower that was never there,
And gives a glow to the childs hair.
This boy stands upon his stone,
And proclaims what he has lost, his world unknown.
Forgotten by all but few, the child sits and squanders life,
Upon his stone and brandished knife.
He holds the knife still against his beating chest,
And rememebers his mothers comforting breast.
All sorrow in this little boy will soon be gone,
His blood may spill across the lawn.
A time will come when the knife is dropped,
For this boy could not take a life,
Be it his, hers, theirs or ours.
Yet still he sits and ponders how
A life that could have been so well
Is lost because of small mistakes.
Desiring for what was before,
A small boy he was, and nevermore.
Liar
Lips vibrating with radiant eloquence
Twisting minds and turning stomach
Utterances loathsome to the soul...
Your mouth speaks volumes of lies
Speech perverting with garish fiction
Polluting thoughts with scary friction
Sugar-coated tongue sharper than knife
Your words cut deeper than swords
Promises made and constantly broken
Vows given and persistently breached
The feet stride over the altar of oath
Your deception hurts more deeply than grief
Lies clothed in the garment of truth
Falsehood covered in the shadow of light
Betrayals marked by inconsistent pleas...
You're a heartless liar of ages
Beneath a Stone
(To my beloved, Ally)
Subtly sensual blacks and grays swirl
serpent-like behind my eyelids where
I hide hours beneath a stone-mysteries of darkness.
When the sun sets my eyes snap open;
these moments I liveinside you.
Images of energy surround you,
;where my flesh walks
I curl around the tangled folds
of indistinctly drifting thoughts,
caught in the merciless currents of
incessantly surging obsession with passion.
I long to run down
the curve that arches heart to thighs
and catch in the hollow below
echoes of my blood
pounding for you as
words blow through me, inspire
your hands.I must explore
your luminous landscape
flooded in tremors of stormy fire
our celestial efforts make;
and when the last restraints snap,
we reap pleasure's dance,
convulsively grasp lucid ecstasy
I'm compelled to keep us there,
accumulated effulgence filling us-
And when we soar for hours
I'll hide mysteries of darkness
beneath a stone.
Passion
(to my beloved)
Wrap your arms around me
Set all your passions free
Let me see the fire
That rages deep within thee
I need to feel the touch
Of your lips upon my cheek
And feel your every breath of life
And hear each word you speak
Oh love me, love me, never stop
For if you do, I'll cry
I'll curl up in the dying fire
And in my own flames die.
Believe in me, my love,
For my heart belongs to you
and no one else neither from above,
Let my soul protect you from the tortures of life
And may us be, in eternity of flames and darkness, husband and wife
Angel of the night
Be not afraid to take my hand
my angel of the night
my footholds strong, my steps are sure
my grips forever tight.
If you shall fall I'll lift you up
and kisss your tears away.
I'll guide you when the path is rough
your light when skies are grey
When fears in you come rising
like the swelling of the sea
and the pain of life is trying
you may borrow strength from me
For to see you sad my dearest friend
is something I can't take
and if your smile fades away
my heart will surely break
So fear not of tomorrow dear
for the rain will soon subside
and when the light of love shines through
you will find me by your side
Is It Really Worth It?
How can i feel
Such love and despair?
I've been loving someone
Who doesn't even care
How could I
Have put up with this so long?
Cause every time we argue
I'm always wrong
People told me
One day i would regret
That day hasn't come
Well, not yet
Now i ask myself
Is it really worth it?
I'm fighting a losing battle
I might have to forfeit
Sometimes i wonder
If life is worth living
Cause i just realized
That i've spent mine giving
Ask Me Why The Seagulls Cry
They watch us walk together, hand in hand,
The gold dust underneath our feet, no longer sand.
The gentle ocean breeze whispers your name to me, and mine to you.
Above the seagulls circle - a most fantastic view!
We climb the jagged, black, wet rocks, our kingdom you proclaim.
And now you crown us King and Queen, the ocean our domain.
They watch me walk alone now, my head held low.
The sand is merely sand, where did the gold dust go?
The gentle ocean breeze forgets our names now, and sings, instead, a sad, sad song.
I climbed the jagged, black, wet rocks, our lovely kingdom - gone.
Now - ask me why the seagulls cry.
A "True Love" poem
I have love and affection.
Although, my reaction
is not relaxation.
I cannot say that I feel true love,
or say that I know what it is,
but one thing I can say,
is that I feel like I love you.
What I see in you
is something that is beyond my feelings,
that I cannot open my eyes to enough
to find out what I see in you,
because of your love for me and my love for you.
Although I am confused
about my love for you,
there is something inside
telling me I love you.
The more I dig deep,
the less I love.
The less I love
is because there are many
unanswered questions I do not know,
yet I love you, how?
I do not know.
Why, I am not sure YET.
But, all I know is that I love you
and you love me.
If that is so terrible, then let it be,
but if not, then yes, let us be.
A Moment in time
The first breath of life,
I breathe you deep.
Through the stinging storm,
A feeling I keep.
A double edged sword,
Two spirits collide.
Emotions unleashed,
Trying to hide.
Reflections of flesh,
Passions ignite.
Entangled souls,
Fearing the light.
A moment in time.
Questions remain.
Sadness in absence
Hurts all the same.
Bittersweet kisses
Fall from the lips.
Rivers of desire
Flow from the hips.
A moment in time,
A heart was set free.
Eventually shattered,
it's meant to be.
To good to be true,
Without reason or rhyme.
Waiting for the sign,
A moment in time.
Her body is cold and rigid
And she hangs about along the walls
With an air of selflessness
Trying to find them
A glimpse of the world she's not in
One day she dreamt too many
And the world came to her
The bleeding visions
Melting off her icy virgin skin
And her eyes pained her
The images intensify and clear
She sees the world
And wishes she could shatter her eyes
Brass armor not protecting her
From the reality she became a part in
Witnessing all the ugliness and selfishness
Her cries unseen
Binded against the wall
A misunderstanding
This wasn't what she dreamed of
Ill-fated she becomes
Used for her reflecing skin
They will never love her
Like them
They will never love her
That mirror
And she can't go back
To the place inside her mind
When she never knew any of this
Led Zeppelin
Stairway To Heaven
There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.
There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.
There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.
And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.
If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.
Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.
And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
Kiss of fate
Kiss of Fate, at last we meet
Long have I been waiting
To gaze upon your being
Tattered robes hang on pale skin
Wind threatening to blow you away
Hair streaming in the small gusts
I can feel your gentle lips touch mine
Sending chills down my spine
The kiss of fate
Your arms embrace my body
My blood runs cold
The touch of damnation
Hear your voice whisper in my ears
So welcoming, drawing me closer
The whisper of silence
Looking into your eyes
A pair of dark pools reflecting the flame
Fires burning to brightly
You show me things I used to know
Things I've tried so hard to gain
Peace love and happiness
I gratefully grab hold these feelings
Gladly joining you on your trip
Down to the gates of Hell
Blood River
. . . and there I grew these roses with my flesh and blood.
When we were one,
our blood flowed smoothly
between our joint veins.
We lived one life,
we breathed together
through the same lungs.
and I was happy. . . yes I was.
We gave each other more than half a year,
more than half a pint, more than half a quart
gave more to this Blood River.
It was strong. . . yes it was.
Not so long ago our Beloved Blood River
slowly, died without it's rythymic flow,
all tied up and dried up.
It gave way, our Blood River
skin dry parched and peeling,
to gushing clots and memories.
My adrenalin rushes
slowly seeping out of my fingertips.
It hurt like hell,
but then I was free. . . yes I was.
My flesh and my heart remended my wounds.
I played with them,
I built and destructed many rivers.
I grew tired and weary. . . yes I did.
With closed eyes,
I searched through the thick and stickiness
and felt my way back to your body
. . . and there I grew these roses with my flesh and blood.
Last Sin
What am I doing?
Why am I here??
There's no reason to live!
That's been made clear!!
Why try and fake it?
I know there's no use!
I'M LOSING MY MIND!!!
Can't take the abuse...
I try and do right,
But right appears wrong!!
Has it always been like this?
This way all along??
My friends are my foes
And only God knows
Why they must exchange
Their hate for my woe
I've nowhere to turn
No guide, no friend
No one, nothing
No beginning, no end
I've tried to explain
To set the records straight
But it doesn't matter
Their view won't abate
Dear God, I beg you
I plead, I implore
Let me sleep
And awake no more
I gave them my all
But it wasn't enough
Forgive me my sin
My last sin of...
Stained Daisy
Twirling in her hand,
A single daisy brings smile to her face.
Its whiteness clenses her soul,
Keeping her at peace.
A gust of wind blows,
Thunder clouds formed above.
Lightning flashes by the distance,
Fear races up her soul,
Her innocent soul.
Unloved.
Disliked.
Hated.
Endless cries damage her tear glands,
Her eyes sore in pain.
But no pain could compare,
To the pain her heart had to endure.
Blood flows down her eyes,
Down to her cheeks,
And dripped on to the daisy.
As its white petals turns red,
Leaving its bright yellow polens,
Where she could turn to,
To smile,
And enlighten her life.
I Don't
I don't want to look into your eyes,
You'll just deceive me with your lies.
I don't want to let you into my heart,
You'll just tear it all apart.
I don't want to look at you and smile,
You'll just make me cry after a while.
I don't want to say, "I love you,"
You'll just laugh and call me a fool.
I don't want to give you any part of me,
Please just leave... and let me be.
