Fie for Thought
Monday, October 30, 2006
Well, yesterday didn't turn out the way I thought it would. Haha. Went SURVEYING with a friend for next month shopping spree. In the end, she was the one who went shopping. 2 jeans and a pair of shoes. -.- You good eh? Accompany me go survey then you go buy. Tsk. Anyway, the jeans you bought were uber nice though, so can lah. ;p
Looked around for a pair of nice shoes but none really catches my taste. Its all the same everywhere. After that, walked over to Tangs to search for Cheap Monday jeans but nooooo.. they said its only available at Vivo City. Zz. But there is this Lee jeans that caught my attention. Uber nice, but too bad it was skinny cutting. Can't wear that! I look gay. Lol. Went over to Taka after that to look for camper shoes and guess what? Its close for renovation. Suay eh? Zz. Then went over to The Heeren hoping to see some nice T-shirts and the Cheap Monday jeans I wanted, but noooooooo.. There were none. Sigh. Walked around for awhile while my friend looked for a bag for school. BAG eh, B-A-G. Not S-H-O-E or J-E-A-N-S. -.-Heh.
We then went down to esplanade to catch Ministry of rock performing there with afew other guests. Paul Danial was awesome. Damn. I wished I had caught their performance on Saturday. Fuck NS. They had to cut the performance short because of the rain. Sigh. Another disappointment of the day. So we went over to Marina Square to look for her bag. Can't find anything that fancy her so we just sat down at Mac for awhile, chilling, drinking Ice Choco and eating cheesecake. Talk about stuffs and life. Before heading home.
Had a great time, had a great company, although its full of disappointments. Thanks alot ya? Next time, I'll be the one shopping. Heh! =p
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I'm sorry, its stupid of me.
I'm sorry, its totally not me.
I'm sorry, please forgive me.
I'm sorry, I'm very very sorry.
Looked around for a pair of nice shoes but none really catches my taste. Its all the same everywhere. After that, walked over to Tangs to search for Cheap Monday jeans but nooooo.. they said its only available at Vivo City. Zz. But there is this Lee jeans that caught my attention. Uber nice, but too bad it was skinny cutting. Can't wear that! I look gay. Lol. Went over to Taka after that to look for camper shoes and guess what? Its close for renovation. Suay eh? Zz. Then went over to The Heeren hoping to see some nice T-shirts and the Cheap Monday jeans I wanted, but noooooooo.. There were none. Sigh. Walked around for awhile while my friend looked for a bag for school. BAG eh, B-A-G. Not S-H-O-E or J-E-A-N-S. -.-Heh.
We then went down to esplanade to catch Ministry of rock performing there with afew other guests. Paul Danial was awesome. Damn. I wished I had caught their performance on Saturday. Fuck NS. They had to cut the performance short because of the rain. Sigh. Another disappointment of the day. So we went over to Marina Square to look for her bag. Can't find anything that fancy her so we just sat down at Mac for awhile, chilling, drinking Ice Choco and eating cheesecake. Talk about stuffs and life. Before heading home.
Had a great time, had a great company, although its full of disappointments. Thanks alot ya? Next time, I'll be the one shopping. Heh! =p
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I'm sorry, its stupid of me.
I'm sorry, its totally not me.
I'm sorry, please forgive me.
I'm sorry, I'm very very sorry.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Heh. Today, I'll blog about something boring. Non-fiction. Heh heh. I bet some of you will probably read less than halfway through and get sleepy. =p
Some of you know I have a secret admiration for astronomy. I love it. Its beautiful in all ways. No, not just the solar system, the whole universe. Its amazing don't you think? A big empty space full of shit, all the shit that you can imagine. Why I suddenly wanna blog about this? Well, just yesterday, while on duty, I was reading this article on Time magazine about the theory on how the universe actually started. Of course some of you might have already know that the universe started out with the infamous 'big bang'. Ever wonder where that 'big bang' thingie came from?
According to renowned astro-physicist, they had a theory that long long time ago, more than 20 billion years ago, there was a universe just like ours. That universe actually compressed and collapse into this super-massive dense ball of matter. It is not known whether this is true or not, just theories. So when the 'big bang' occurred, the universe was born. The 'thing' that exploded was called Singularity. After that, all the mambo jambo are kinda hard to understand so I'll skip that. =p
So because of this big bang, our universe is actually expanding. Even after 13.7billion years after it happened, its still expanding, faster than the speed of light at the edges. Try imagining a balloon being blown. So what actually is the content of the universe? You've probably had learnt about matter in physics lessons, but do you know that actually all the know matters to man are only 10% of what there are in the universe. The other 90% are unknown to scientists. The mysterious "dark matter" and "dark energy" are used to call these matters. (kinda cool eh?) So it all brings back to tell us how tiny we are on this blue ball we call home. We complained about a trip from Jurong to Pasir Ris is gonna take an annoying 1 1/2 hours. It takes light (travelling at 300,000km/sec) 2.5 million years to reach us from the galaxy, Andromeda. You do the maths. Thats our closest, similiar sized, galaxy to our own Milky Way.
Damn. I can't go on talking about this. You'll guys would never read my post, ever. Lol. Ok lah ok lah. You're a boring guy, Fie! But still, can't a boring guy ever ponder about stuffs which fascinates just about every person that could look up into the sky and at the stars. (Don't bother doing that in your neighbourhood. All you can see are just afew sparkles. Zz)
Some of you know I have a secret admiration for astronomy. I love it. Its beautiful in all ways. No, not just the solar system, the whole universe. Its amazing don't you think? A big empty space full of shit, all the shit that you can imagine. Why I suddenly wanna blog about this? Well, just yesterday, while on duty, I was reading this article on Time magazine about the theory on how the universe actually started. Of course some of you might have already know that the universe started out with the infamous 'big bang'. Ever wonder where that 'big bang' thingie came from?
According to renowned astro-physicist, they had a theory that long long time ago, more than 20 billion years ago, there was a universe just like ours. That universe actually compressed and collapse into this super-massive dense ball of matter. It is not known whether this is true or not, just theories. So when the 'big bang' occurred, the universe was born. The 'thing' that exploded was called Singularity. After that, all the mambo jambo are kinda hard to understand so I'll skip that. =p
So because of this big bang, our universe is actually expanding. Even after 13.7billion years after it happened, its still expanding, faster than the speed of light at the edges. Try imagining a balloon being blown. So what actually is the content of the universe? You've probably had learnt about matter in physics lessons, but do you know that actually all the know matters to man are only 10% of what there are in the universe. The other 90% are unknown to scientists. The mysterious "dark matter" and "dark energy" are used to call these matters. (kinda cool eh?) So it all brings back to tell us how tiny we are on this blue ball we call home. We complained about a trip from Jurong to Pasir Ris is gonna take an annoying 1 1/2 hours. It takes light (travelling at 300,000km/sec) 2.5 million years to reach us from the galaxy, Andromeda. You do the maths. Thats our closest, similiar sized, galaxy to our own Milky Way.
Damn. I can't go on talking about this. You'll guys would never read my post, ever. Lol. Ok lah ok lah. You're a boring guy, Fie! But still, can't a boring guy ever ponder about stuffs which fascinates just about every person that could look up into the sky and at the stars. (Don't bother doing that in your neighbourhood. All you can see are just afew sparkles. Zz)
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Pride. I hate that word.
1. a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.
2. the state or feeling of being proud.
3. a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one's position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.
4. pleasure or satisfaction taken in something done by or belonging to oneself or believed to reflect credit upon oneself: civic pride.
5. something that causes a person or persons to be proud: His art collection was the pride of the family.
Humans are so full at pride that sometimes it could be because of it the world isn't gonna be at peace again. "That guy's got a damn big dick ego" an American saying about a guy with alot of pride. Is it wrong to just put aside our pride and be level with everyone? Is it a bad thing to be level with everyone? Why must we always be higher than the average Joe? To be seen? To be known? The attention? To know that we are higher - say have bigger dicks - than others?
Lets just put all of these nonsense aside. Lets all just sit together, same level, heart to heart, hand in hand. No one's gonna laugh at anyone. No one's gonna look down to anyone. Everyone's equal. We're all born naked and without a clue what is life.
All with the same 7 sins in us. Whether we are strong enough to resist rather than succumb to the sins, is all up to us. We make the choices. So why don't we human can't choose wisely sometimes? Confusion? Influential? False realisation? We can never know.
Someone asked me
"Everyone's got the common sense to tell what's wrong and what's right."
I replied, "Right or wrong depends on the individual's point of view, his or her concept of what is right and wrong."
He argued, "Killing is wrong to most people, therefore its a wrong thing."
I replied, "But there are still people who see it as a right thing?"
There is no right or wrong in this world. There can never be equality amongst all. But can we not try to achieve something that is near to that? Are we civilised enough to achieve that? That achievement isn't in sight anytime soon. Come on. Let us admit it. We're all still primitive.
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Gah. I won't. I can't. Must listen to Lyn.
1. a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.
2. the state or feeling of being proud.
3. a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one's position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.
4. pleasure or satisfaction taken in something done by or belonging to oneself or believed to reflect credit upon oneself: civic pride.
5. something that causes a person or persons to be proud: His art collection was the pride of the family.
Humans are so full at pride that sometimes it could be because of it the world isn't gonna be at peace again. "That guy's got a damn big dick ego" an American saying about a guy with alot of pride. Is it wrong to just put aside our pride and be level with everyone? Is it a bad thing to be level with everyone? Why must we always be higher than the average Joe? To be seen? To be known? The attention? To know that we are higher - say have bigger dicks - than others?
Lets just put all of these nonsense aside. Lets all just sit together, same level, heart to heart, hand in hand. No one's gonna laugh at anyone. No one's gonna look down to anyone. Everyone's equal. We're all born naked and without a clue what is life.
All with the same 7 sins in us. Whether we are strong enough to resist rather than succumb to the sins, is all up to us. We make the choices. So why don't we human can't choose wisely sometimes? Confusion? Influential? False realisation? We can never know.
Someone asked me
"Everyone's got the common sense to tell what's wrong and what's right."
I replied, "Right or wrong depends on the individual's point of view, his or her concept of what is right and wrong."
He argued, "Killing is wrong to most people, therefore its a wrong thing."
I replied, "But there are still people who see it as a right thing?"
There is no right or wrong in this world. There can never be equality amongst all. But can we not try to achieve something that is near to that? Are we civilised enough to achieve that? That achievement isn't in sight anytime soon. Come on. Let us admit it. We're all still primitive.
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Gah. I won't. I can't. Must listen to Lyn.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
My mind's blank. I don't know what to say or do anymore. I guess I'd just give up. Nothing I can do anyway. Useless me.
Every year, there is the Hari Raya hype and everybody gets so excited, just about everything that has to do with that day. All the shopping, cleaning, anticipation. Honestly, I don't see any excitement or anything special about this day. Never had I enjoyed it. Seek forgiveness and enjoy yourself on this joyful day, they would say. People crying and asking for forgiveness with each other. The fun they refering to perhaps means the interaction with each other and eating food. To be honest, I pretend to have fun every year. The oh-so-obvious fake smile I put on every year. Go this, go that. You have to go or do or people will get upset.
Gahh.. I don't know what I'm babbling about. I just hate all this kinda 'special' days which somehow I don't see anything special about it. Rather be doing duty then be out on these days, get my off-in-lieu. Rather spend my off days doing other things.
Ahh.. I'm of to bed. At least its more peaceful then staying awake. At least I don't have to think and time will pass faster. If only I could just live in a dream forever. Who wouldn't want to?
Every year, there is the Hari Raya hype and everybody gets so excited, just about everything that has to do with that day. All the shopping, cleaning, anticipation. Honestly, I don't see any excitement or anything special about this day. Never had I enjoyed it. Seek forgiveness and enjoy yourself on this joyful day, they would say. People crying and asking for forgiveness with each other. The fun they refering to perhaps means the interaction with each other and eating food. To be honest, I pretend to have fun every year. The oh-so-obvious fake smile I put on every year. Go this, go that. You have to go or do or people will get upset.
Gahh.. I don't know what I'm babbling about. I just hate all this kinda 'special' days which somehow I don't see anything special about it. Rather be doing duty then be out on these days, get my off-in-lieu. Rather spend my off days doing other things.
Ahh.. I'm of to bed. At least its more peaceful then staying awake. At least I don't have to think and time will pass faster. If only I could just live in a dream forever. Who wouldn't want to?
Sunday, October 22, 2006
In life, I've seen transitions happening time and again. Since young, it happened in a blink of an eye, and before I knew it, its already starting anew. For now somehow, its totally different. Now alot of stuffs are preventing that transition from happening. Everything's conflicting. I can't let it happen. Its way deep in me now, my life.
I've drained myself. I'm tired. But I've squeezed the remaining of it. For the sake of understanding and clarity. I hope all of you understand. Now lets just move on and forget everything, ok? Just move on. No more questions. No more doubts. Lets just all be happy again. =)
I'll take a break now. From everything. Start back my photographing hobby. Spend more time alone. Enjoy the peace at the usual place where 'we' used to go. Yeah. Missed that place. Sigh. Hope I'll see you in my dreams again, Fizah. I need you.
I've drained myself. I'm tired. But I've squeezed the remaining of it. For the sake of understanding and clarity. I hope all of you understand. Now lets just move on and forget everything, ok? Just move on. No more questions. No more doubts. Lets just all be happy again. =)
I'll take a break now. From everything. Start back my photographing hobby. Spend more time alone. Enjoy the peace at the usual place where 'we' used to go. Yeah. Missed that place. Sigh. Hope I'll see you in my dreams again, Fizah. I need you.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Yay! Today was fun doods! Went sheesha-ing with Yk, Seok, Sebas and Cindy. Haha. Damn, I love chilling out with you guys. Everyone just opens up and be themselves. Isn't it great? Yk finally is back to his poly ways. Sebas is still the same, with a different haircut but that's better you see. Cindy still blur and Seoker's still the same -.- seok. Heh. Anyway Seok, your face always like not happy one at times. I also don't know if you're bored or you're pissed or you're just staring at nothing. Lol.
The place we chill out is at the corner of Arab street. Kinda ulu, its near Kampung Glam House if I'm not wrong. Damn nice sia the place. You can practically lie down and smoke sheesha. Ain't that called chilling? The place have this shady feeling, makes me feel something fishy is going on there, but what the heck? Me and my weird feelings. Then we tried different ways of smoking cigs and sheesha. Lol. All the faces are like drug addicts!
Haha. Oh, here's where we got high on sheesha.
Heeeeeee. =D Oh yah! Seok! You haven't teach me to sing! =X Next time must. Heh.
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Relax. Cheer up. It'll be over soon. Just hold on k? =) You'll have fun after all these are over. Yup.
I still care.
The place we chill out is at the corner of Arab street. Kinda ulu, its near Kampung Glam House if I'm not wrong. Damn nice sia the place. You can practically lie down and smoke sheesha. Ain't that called chilling? The place have this shady feeling, makes me feel something fishy is going on there, but what the heck? Me and my weird feelings. Then we tried different ways of smoking cigs and sheesha. Lol. All the faces are like drug addicts!
Haha. Oh, here's where we got high on sheesha.
Heeeeeee. =D Oh yah! Seok! You haven't teach me to sing! =X Next time must. Heh.
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Relax. Cheer up. It'll be over soon. Just hold on k? =) You'll have fun after all these are over. Yup.
I still care.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
You know, standing within an area a little bigger than a normal 3 room HDB home, from 8pm-8am can really bring out the craziness within you. Not to mention the nonsensical blabbering you would talk about with your buddy doing the work with you. Its amazing how 2 sane people, 2 normal guys, 2 idiots - no, Candice, I'm not gonna say "2 gays". Aww, so sad right? Tsk. - can actually talk non-stop about everything and anything and continue laughing like mad fucks for 12hours for 8 shifts.
The topics we talked about range from normal sane stuffs like problems and life, to nonsensical stuffs like directing a Tamil comedy movie and lame, lame jokes. Lets explain in detail what we planned to do in a Tamil comedy movie.
I was walking around the pantry area when I saw this group of army guys, about 15 of them, watching a Tamil action movie. They were so engross in it that I went there and take a stack of red bean buns and they didn't even move an eyelid. So I thought what's so nice about the movie that these guys are so engrossed in. So I stand by the side and watch. Here goes...
The hero caught the girl just before she landed to the floor from the Bad Boss's smack on the face. The camera zooms in on the hero's "angry" eyes. Zoom out and zoom in to the Bad Boss's "angry" face. Bad boss walk away and asked his minions to attack hero. Hero takes out a revolver (Note: Revolver consists of 6 rounds normally) and starts running back to cover, with the damsel in distress on his shoulder. Somehow he ran more than 400 meters from where he was to behind a cover. The minions couldn't catch up with that superhuman speed. Hero puts damsel down and tell her to stay there. Hero jumps out of cover and, while flying in mid-air he stylishly shoots at 3 minions and the 3 of them drop dead. Hero falls on the floor, does a roll and shoots 2 more shots while giving the damsel a wink. 3 minions drop dead. Minions open fire with their sub-machine guns. All shots missed hero. Hero makes a 720 degree spin and shoots without aiming at minions. Heard 3 shots. 4 minions died, including one on top of a tree. Hero then dash across, do a hand stand and shoot while upside down to kill 2 minions. All this while minions are shooting sub machine guns. Hero ran towards the rest of the minions and suddenly everything slows down. Hero dodges a rain of bullets by using his special dance moves and kills the rest of the minions - 7 of them. All died.
Hero stands in the middle of the court and stands savvy-ly, no sweat, no panting. Then Bad Boss appear.
By this time, I was laughing to myself while the rest, eyes still glued to the TV. Need I explain further what happen when the hero fight the Bad Boss? I guess you guess can make up the story and somehow it seems right. So I was discussing with my buddy, if that wasn't comedy, then how is a Tamil comedy? No racism or anything here folks, but seriously, I can't help it but laugh.
This shows how bored army guys are. We are wasting 2 years of our lives doing all this shit and we're actually being ordered around by people who usually can't be bothered to think about what are the consequences that might affect the soldiers, the people who are working, instead think of what might benifit them and the image of their organisation. I think Mac Donald's are more organised then them. Sheesh. Come to think of it, Mac Donald's pays more than they do. Yay, Singapore. See how protected you are. =)
The topics we talked about range from normal sane stuffs like problems and life, to nonsensical stuffs like directing a Tamil comedy movie and lame, lame jokes. Lets explain in detail what we planned to do in a Tamil comedy movie.
I was walking around the pantry area when I saw this group of army guys, about 15 of them, watching a Tamil action movie. They were so engross in it that I went there and take a stack of red bean buns and they didn't even move an eyelid. So I thought what's so nice about the movie that these guys are so engrossed in. So I stand by the side and watch. Here goes...
The hero caught the girl just before she landed to the floor from the Bad Boss's smack on the face. The camera zooms in on the hero's "angry" eyes. Zoom out and zoom in to the Bad Boss's "angry" face. Bad boss walk away and asked his minions to attack hero. Hero takes out a revolver (Note: Revolver consists of 6 rounds normally) and starts running back to cover, with the damsel in distress on his shoulder. Somehow he ran more than 400 meters from where he was to behind a cover. The minions couldn't catch up with that superhuman speed. Hero puts damsel down and tell her to stay there. Hero jumps out of cover and, while flying in mid-air he stylishly shoots at 3 minions and the 3 of them drop dead. Hero falls on the floor, does a roll and shoots 2 more shots while giving the damsel a wink. 3 minions drop dead. Minions open fire with their sub-machine guns. All shots missed hero. Hero makes a 720 degree spin and shoots without aiming at minions. Heard 3 shots. 4 minions died, including one on top of a tree. Hero then dash across, do a hand stand and shoot while upside down to kill 2 minions. All this while minions are shooting sub machine guns. Hero ran towards the rest of the minions and suddenly everything slows down. Hero dodges a rain of bullets by using his special dance moves and kills the rest of the minions - 7 of them. All died.
Hero stands in the middle of the court and stands savvy-ly, no sweat, no panting. Then Bad Boss appear.
By this time, I was laughing to myself while the rest, eyes still glued to the TV. Need I explain further what happen when the hero fight the Bad Boss? I guess you guess can make up the story and somehow it seems right. So I was discussing with my buddy, if that wasn't comedy, then how is a Tamil comedy? No racism or anything here folks, but seriously, I can't help it but laugh.
This shows how bored army guys are. We are wasting 2 years of our lives doing all this shit and we're actually being ordered around by people who usually can't be bothered to think about what are the consequences that might affect the soldiers, the people who are working, instead think of what might benifit them and the image of their organisation. I think Mac Donald's are more organised then them. Sheesh. Come to think of it, Mac Donald's pays more than they do. Yay, Singapore. See how protected you are. =)
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Hmm. How should I put it nicely? Gah. Went out with Sebastian today and....
I WENT SHOPPING AND SPENT $200 ON JEANS AND A SHIRT! WOOHOOO!
The jeans are omgly, freakingly nice can?! Sial ah. Its a Cheap Monday jeans. Regular. Fitting at the top, slightly tappered at the bottom. Power lah dhey! I tried it 1st time and it slipped in so perfectly, it follows the shape of my butt. Although its fitting its damn comfortable. The jeans are stretchable, making even more comfortable. Bought 1 size smaller. Costs me $119. Worth it!
Next, we went around to find a shirt. Went to afew shops around town - in Paragon, Heeren, Taka and Marina - didn't see much at 1st but when we dropped by at Zara and saw this black shirt, its totally "I gotta have this" mindset sia. Haha. Its a plain black shirt, 75% cotton 25% nylon, with a side cutting near the armpit area down to the waist. Its damn simple yet so nice sial! Tried both the long and short sleeves and damn, I can't decide! Haha. So I figured I get the long sleeve and fold the sleeves whenever I feel like wearing short sleeves. Its kinda cool too to fold it up. Both were fitting and damn, I'm just glad army buff my body up. Shows the chest muscles just perfectly. =D Argh! Can't wait to wear them out! Next up, shoes! heh heh heh..
Here's a blur picture of the shirt and part of the jeans. Sucky camera phone. Sorry ya.
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You guys got the answers to the 2 question I posted yesterday? Figure it out?
1) Its the letter 'M'. Lifetime = 1 'M', Moment = 2 'M', 100000years = 0 'M' =D
2) Its the letter 'G'. 'Everything' ends with the letter 'G'. =D
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm being lame!
I WENT SHOPPING AND SPENT $200 ON JEANS AND A SHIRT! WOOHOOO!
The jeans are omgly, freakingly nice can?! Sial ah. Its a Cheap Monday jeans. Regular. Fitting at the top, slightly tappered at the bottom. Power lah dhey! I tried it 1st time and it slipped in so perfectly, it follows the shape of my butt. Although its fitting its damn comfortable. The jeans are stretchable, making even more comfortable. Bought 1 size smaller. Costs me $119. Worth it!
Next, we went around to find a shirt. Went to afew shops around town - in Paragon, Heeren, Taka and Marina - didn't see much at 1st but when we dropped by at Zara and saw this black shirt, its totally "I gotta have this" mindset sia. Haha. Its a plain black shirt, 75% cotton 25% nylon, with a side cutting near the armpit area down to the waist. Its damn simple yet so nice sial! Tried both the long and short sleeves and damn, I can't decide! Haha. So I figured I get the long sleeve and fold the sleeves whenever I feel like wearing short sleeves. Its kinda cool too to fold it up. Both were fitting and damn, I'm just glad army buff my body up. Shows the chest muscles just perfectly. =D Argh! Can't wait to wear them out! Next up, shoes! heh heh heh..
Here's a blur picture of the shirt and part of the jeans. Sucky camera phone. Sorry ya.
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You guys got the answers to the 2 question I posted yesterday? Figure it out?
1) Its the letter 'M'. Lifetime = 1 'M', Moment = 2 'M', 100000years = 0 'M' =D
2) Its the letter 'G'. 'Everything' ends with the letter 'G'. =D
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm being lame!
Friday, October 13, 2006
Doctors. How the hell they know stuffs when we ourselves don't know about us. =/ Bunch of weird people. Gah. I guess we just have to trust they know what they're doing. Damn it. Ahhhhhhhh! Shut it up. =X
What are the answer to these questions:
1)It happened only once in a lifetime, twice in a moment and never in a one hundred thousand years. It is full of meaning and mystery. What is it?
2)Everything in life has to come to an end, one way or another. Its a sad thing but its a fact of life. Nothing last forever. We are all mortals in this cruel world, where life is unfair and unjust. We can't do anything about it. All round me, everything has come to its end or nearing to it. Beginnings seems so far away. Tell me now, what is the end of everything?
PS: Nura, I've asked you about this, so please keep it to yourself ok?
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What's happening? DAMN IT!
Can someone please tell me what the hell is wrong?!
Please, someone, anyone...
What are the answer to these questions:
1)It happened only once in a lifetime, twice in a moment and never in a one hundred thousand years. It is full of meaning and mystery. What is it?
2)Everything in life has to come to an end, one way or another. Its a sad thing but its a fact of life. Nothing last forever. We are all mortals in this cruel world, where life is unfair and unjust. We can't do anything about it. All round me, everything has come to its end or nearing to it. Beginnings seems so far away. Tell me now, what is the end of everything?
PS: Nura, I've asked you about this, so please keep it to yourself ok?
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What's happening? DAMN IT!
Can someone please tell me what the hell is wrong?!
Please, someone, anyone...
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Gah. Still tired. What's wrong with me. =/ Anyway, I slept at 7am yesterday. Lol. The stupid night shift thingy is really screwing up my body clock big time. Hmm, but quite fun eh. I don't see much of the sun. Gah, I hate the sun. Sheesh. Woke up at 1345 but I doubt I would wake up that 'early' if I hadn't set my alarm. Went to meet Wan to get the gig DVDs. Oh I'll post it up on youtube once I get it in my com.
After meeting Wan, I drop by at Candice's workplace to pass her the DVD. Eh you looked in a mess can? Panda eyes all. -.- Oh, she work at this Zara outlet at Taka which I always walk pass there to go to the library at Orchard, and I didn't know it was there. How observant I am. Zz.
Spent the rest of the day composing. Damn I've got so many ideas, I can't decide which one to play and which one not to play. Lol. Wish I can spend the whole year with the band composing music. =X Ok I asked too much. I missed jamming. I missed talking cock together somewhere, anywhere. I missed my life. Lets live again shall we? I'm giving it all, for music. Not anything else. =D
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Am I stupid? I'm too soft eh? I'm giving in too much eh? Sigh. Can't do anything about it. Its my nature. Sometimes I hate it. In this cruel world, being soft and you won't survive for long. But being soft and giving at times will bring you happiness in no other way possible. Its a good risk to take.
But even my softness and my patience won't be able to conceal and hide the hatred that I had for someone. I tried all I can, and its still there. Hating isn't me at all and its a feeling I wish we all could abolish. But this is one hatred that will remain inside of me forever. I repeat that, forever. I'm just happy I could contain it within me. Not many can. Be glad I could. Or you're dead already. That I won't deny. Reminiscing what I was in the past, you're one lucky person. Lucky that I've changed into what I am now. So don't be cocky about anything and annoy me, ok? Be happy that you get what you want. =)
PS: Nura, don't know if you know the F language but here goes. Fa'afepe faukau facafapkap femefangmang febefultul. Fekefamafarafanhan fidifer'er femefangmang fetefaptap fa'aferder fedefatkat fadafamlam fa'afuku. Hope you understand. LOL!
After meeting Wan, I drop by at Candice's workplace to pass her the DVD. Eh you looked in a mess can? Panda eyes all. -.- Oh, she work at this Zara outlet at Taka which I always walk pass there to go to the library at Orchard, and I didn't know it was there. How observant I am. Zz.
Spent the rest of the day composing. Damn I've got so many ideas, I can't decide which one to play and which one not to play. Lol. Wish I can spend the whole year with the band composing music. =X Ok I asked too much. I missed jamming. I missed talking cock together somewhere, anywhere. I missed my life. Lets live again shall we? I'm giving it all, for music. Not anything else. =D
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Am I stupid? I'm too soft eh? I'm giving in too much eh? Sigh. Can't do anything about it. Its my nature. Sometimes I hate it. In this cruel world, being soft and you won't survive for long. But being soft and giving at times will bring you happiness in no other way possible. Its a good risk to take.
But even my softness and my patience won't be able to conceal and hide the hatred that I had for someone. I tried all I can, and its still there. Hating isn't me at all and its a feeling I wish we all could abolish. But this is one hatred that will remain inside of me forever. I repeat that, forever. I'm just happy I could contain it within me. Not many can. Be glad I could. Or you're dead already. That I won't deny. Reminiscing what I was in the past, you're one lucky person. Lucky that I've changed into what I am now. So don't be cocky about anything and annoy me, ok? Be happy that you get what you want. =)
PS: Nura, don't know if you know the F language but here goes. Fa'afepe faukau facafapkap femefangmang febefultul. Fekefamafarafanhan fidifer'er femefangmang fetefaptap fa'aferder fedefatkat fadafamlam fa'afuku. Hope you understand. LOL!
Monday, October 09, 2006
I'm tired. Gah. Felt so damn lethargic. Its those days where you just don't want to do anything and just sit somewhere in the corner of your room and do quiet little things like reading a book, draw some sketches or play the guitar.. Ok wait, maybe not that quiet. Reached home from camp feeling damn tired, yet not sleepy (I'm working night shift on my duties 8pm-8am. zz.). I just dump all the clothes into the washer and off to my room to slack with my guitar. Sheesh.
Maybe I need to spice up my life abit eh? Haha. Michy actually asked me to go to Ministry of Sound. Wrong person to ask eh. Maybe I should start back my gaming life? Or maybe start back playing badminton? But with who seh? I want to try and be more socialized, make more friends. But how seh? Haha. An anti-social guy by nature trying to be social. Michy voluteered to help. Yes. Michy. You help Daddy eh? I think your friends all roll away. Remember last year when I went over your birthday dinner? Did I actually spoke to anyone I didn't know already? Lol. And someone actually said I look like a secondary school kid. -.- Bleah.
I can't help it eh. People said that if you wanna socialize then just be friendly and don't be shy. I'm in a group and I prefer listening to what they have to say then say stuffs myself. To me its part of knowing the people in the group. Just hearing and looking at them. But the talking to them part is abit hard eh. Maybe Its just me cause I have a straight face. But what to do seh? Keep smiling like some retarded... Wait, this reminds me of someone. LOL OOPs? =X Anywayyyy, so yeap. Somebody please give me a dose of not-shy potion so I can be totally crazy and freak the hell out of people. Its socializing, isn't it? People will know me as some crazy guy, rather than not know me at all? =D
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Sometimes, reality tends to pull back to Earth when you're flying high in the sky. The thought of being up there and staying there is great, but one way or another, what goes up must come down. Its the fact. To be down on Earth, here lowly and down, isn't always a bad thing. Its a balance we all must have. Our highs, our lows. Our ups, our downs. You may want to fly high and stay there, but sometimes you'll need someone to pull you back down, so that you can see what is happening below the clouds, to understand it. It isn't wrong to be wanting to fly high all the time. Its a good thing to be doing that. But just remember flying takes alot of energy. Are you prepared with the all that huge energy and stress?
Come down once awhile. Don't be scared. There's nothing to be afraid of. You don't have to tell the whole world. There is a secret place where you can land and take a look around. Relief yourself, and fly again. I'll always make that place ready for you. =)
Maybe I need to spice up my life abit eh? Haha. Michy actually asked me to go to Ministry of Sound. Wrong person to ask eh. Maybe I should start back my gaming life? Or maybe start back playing badminton? But with who seh? I want to try and be more socialized, make more friends. But how seh? Haha. An anti-social guy by nature trying to be social. Michy voluteered to help. Yes. Michy. You help Daddy eh? I think your friends all roll away. Remember last year when I went over your birthday dinner? Did I actually spoke to anyone I didn't know already? Lol. And someone actually said I look like a secondary school kid. -.- Bleah.
I can't help it eh. People said that if you wanna socialize then just be friendly and don't be shy. I'm in a group and I prefer listening to what they have to say then say stuffs myself. To me its part of knowing the people in the group. Just hearing and looking at them. But the talking to them part is abit hard eh. Maybe Its just me cause I have a straight face. But what to do seh? Keep smiling like some retarded... Wait, this reminds me of someone. LOL OOPs? =X Anywayyyy, so yeap. Somebody please give me a dose of not-shy potion so I can be totally crazy and freak the hell out of people. Its socializing, isn't it? People will know me as some crazy guy, rather than not know me at all? =D
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Sometimes, reality tends to pull back to Earth when you're flying high in the sky. The thought of being up there and staying there is great, but one way or another, what goes up must come down. Its the fact. To be down on Earth, here lowly and down, isn't always a bad thing. Its a balance we all must have. Our highs, our lows. Our ups, our downs. You may want to fly high and stay there, but sometimes you'll need someone to pull you back down, so that you can see what is happening below the clouds, to understand it. It isn't wrong to be wanting to fly high all the time. Its a good thing to be doing that. But just remember flying takes alot of energy. Are you prepared with the all that huge energy and stress?
Come down once awhile. Don't be scared. There's nothing to be afraid of. You don't have to tell the whole world. There is a secret place where you can land and take a look around. Relief yourself, and fly again. I'll always make that place ready for you. =)
Friday, October 06, 2006
Had to go back to camp yesterday. Had to do some work but instead, I ended up chatting with my new Lieutenant. Nice guy. After that went over to Yk's place and jammed. Damn. We just had to make that studio soundproof ASAP. Later meet up with Jason and Rabanny at Adam Road Food Center to break fast.
The food there sucks. Don't know why is it so popular in the first place. Went back to Yk's place and we jammed Sign Of The Cross for the 1st time. Not bad. Kinda hard in the middle part but we pulled it through while I was playing with an accoustic guitar. Savvy eh? Yk set up some stereo recording with 2 simple mics. Sounded quite good. After that we watched our band's video.
IT WAS AWESOME DOOD!
I have no idea why the crowd was so dead. I thought that we sucked so much that they don't give a damn. But from what I see in the video, our performance was much tighter than our 1st gig at Phunk Bar. Anyways, I'll put it up on youtube ASAP. Damn, I wanna perform, bigger stage, bigger crowd, livelier crowds and a whole bunch of Maiden fans! Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................
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Once a guard is always a guard,
Seperate paths but passion at heart.
Thou shall be missed, that would be rightful,
An undeniable fact, damn, I was a fool.
The food there sucks. Don't know why is it so popular in the first place. Went back to Yk's place and we jammed Sign Of The Cross for the 1st time. Not bad. Kinda hard in the middle part but we pulled it through while I was playing with an accoustic guitar. Savvy eh? Yk set up some stereo recording with 2 simple mics. Sounded quite good. After that we watched our band's video.
IT WAS AWESOME DOOD!
I have no idea why the crowd was so dead. I thought that we sucked so much that they don't give a damn. But from what I see in the video, our performance was much tighter than our 1st gig at Phunk Bar. Anyways, I'll put it up on youtube ASAP. Damn, I wanna perform, bigger stage, bigger crowd, livelier crowds and a whole bunch of Maiden fans! Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................
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Once a guard is always a guard,
Seperate paths but passion at heart.
Thou shall be missed, that would be rightful,
An undeniable fact, damn, I was a fool.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
I was slapped awake, regain my consciousness, get to my senses, opened my eyes, see the world or whatever you called it, by a pair of underwear. Literally. How interesting is that? Sheesh. What a wake up call.
PS:Oh, before I forget. Michy asked me to post on my blog how cute how nice she is and she owes me 2 milkshakes. Not Mac Donald's milkshake eh. At least a Swensen milkshake. =D Thanks ya, Michy daughter.
PS:Oh, before I forget. Michy asked me to post on my blog how cute how nice she is and she owes me 2 milkshakes. Not Mac Donald's milkshake eh. At least a Swensen milkshake. =D Thanks ya, Michy daughter.
Monday, October 02, 2006
Sometimes, you just have to do something although you don't want to do it. Its called sacrifice. To make things better, or to hope it'll be better. No one with the sane mind would sacrifice something to make things worse. Everyone had made sacrifices in their lifetime. To feel the pain of loosing something or accepting something. It depends on whether you have the courage to make that sacrifice or not.
In a change of subject, some actions people make seemed right and no wrong to them. Its a person's own view that shapes the world he or she lives in. In reality, there is no right or wrong. Its whether we can accept it in our lives or not. Hitler sees it right to kill all Jews. To others, its utherly evil. US president Bush sees it right to attack Iraq, while many others oppose that action. To get Hussein out of Iraq and stop his dictorship is a right thing. To enter war to settle the stuff is a wrong thing.
So this brings us ask the question, what is wrong and right? Its an illusion created among ourselves to have a guideline on our lives to live the so called "right" way. Its up to the individual's choice.
I felt really bad now. But I did the right thing, well right to me at least. I hope all goes well now. Hate me now. Hate me forever. Its a sacrifice I've made. To make you hate me.
It hurts too much seeing you like this. Better for me to run away then stay and endure it. Go on now. Hate me. We're strangers now. For what it's worth, I hope you'll be happier with your new life. Best wishes from me, Fie.
I'm sorry
In a change of subject, some actions people make seemed right and no wrong to them. Its a person's own view that shapes the world he or she lives in. In reality, there is no right or wrong. Its whether we can accept it in our lives or not. Hitler sees it right to kill all Jews. To others, its utherly evil. US president Bush sees it right to attack Iraq, while many others oppose that action. To get Hussein out of Iraq and stop his dictorship is a right thing. To enter war to settle the stuff is a wrong thing.
So this brings us ask the question, what is wrong and right? Its an illusion created among ourselves to have a guideline on our lives to live the so called "right" way. Its up to the individual's choice.
I felt really bad now. But I did the right thing, well right to me at least. I hope all goes well now. Hate me now. Hate me forever. Its a sacrifice I've made. To make you hate me.
It hurts too much seeing you like this. Better for me to run away then stay and endure it. Go on now. Hate me. We're strangers now. For what it's worth, I hope you'll be happier with your new life. Best wishes from me, Fie.
I'm sorry
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I don't know where to start today. I guess I'll just start with the gig.
I LOVE THE EISEN GUARDS!
Damn it, I should have been in better shape during the gig. Sorry I wasn't 100% guys. Thank you all of you who have came to the gig to support us. Thank you so much.
After the gig we went to centerpoint Mac to just sit down and chill with the old friends. Friends whom I was so close to before NS. Friends whom I missed so much. There was me, Sebastian, Seok, Cindy, Yk and Jason after we ate at Mac. We walk over to The Istana Park to just sit down and chill. Talk about stuffs. Catch up. About each others problems.
GOD! I missed you guys! I finally realised how much I missed sitting down with you guys, chit-chatting about anything - problems, bullshit, etc. Just sitting down together. Listening to one another. Its totally awesome man. I don't know. I felt so relieved. So happy for the 1st time in such a long time. I missed being happy, and you guys just brought back the feeling. I can't thank you guys enough for that.
There was something the guys said to me over and over again but tonight I heard it clearest and it really struck me in the head. Yk was the one who did it. Before he left to send Jason home, he said to me "Eh Fie! We're all with you till the end no matter what!" I'll remember that guys. I'll always remember that. And I'll tell you, I'm always with you guys till the end, no matter what. We're a family now, and I don't wish to loose any of you guys for any price. Up the Eisen!
We're The Eisen Guards.
PS: Hey Cindy, thanks for sharing your story with me. I know we didn't talk to each other much the past don't know how long. So yeah. Nice talking to you.
I LOVE THE EISEN GUARDS!
Damn it, I should have been in better shape during the gig. Sorry I wasn't 100% guys. Thank you all of you who have came to the gig to support us. Thank you so much.
After the gig we went to centerpoint Mac to just sit down and chill with the old friends. Friends whom I was so close to before NS. Friends whom I missed so much. There was me, Sebastian, Seok, Cindy, Yk and Jason after we ate at Mac. We walk over to The Istana Park to just sit down and chill. Talk about stuffs. Catch up. About each others problems.
GOD! I missed you guys! I finally realised how much I missed sitting down with you guys, chit-chatting about anything - problems, bullshit, etc. Just sitting down together. Listening to one another. Its totally awesome man. I don't know. I felt so relieved. So happy for the 1st time in such a long time. I missed being happy, and you guys just brought back the feeling. I can't thank you guys enough for that.
There was something the guys said to me over and over again but tonight I heard it clearest and it really struck me in the head. Yk was the one who did it. Before he left to send Jason home, he said to me "Eh Fie! We're all with you till the end no matter what!" I'll remember that guys. I'll always remember that. And I'll tell you, I'm always with you guys till the end, no matter what. We're a family now, and I don't wish to loose any of you guys for any price. Up the Eisen!
We're The Eisen Guards.
PS: Hey Cindy, thanks for sharing your story with me. I know we didn't talk to each other much the past don't know how long. So yeah. Nice talking to you.
